midnight.fever

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

completed 1 out of 4 projects today.
quite drained from the previous night preparing for it.

drifting to the familiar old late-night reflective mood again.
ever felt like the past seemed better, than what u have now?
i would love to relive the days in sec 3 again.
many many memories from that year.
guess all that i can say,
was that they really were good memories.
time. and all its works.
it can really make u cherish what u have now,
remindin you of the significant things in your life,
and not gettin too bothered by trivial stuff like sch, any incident, etc.
time can also pull significant ppl away from ur life,
even if, in the deeper depths inside you, you have never forgotten them.
talking to these people, then and now, can have such differences.
well, the good things never last eh. hah.

okay, out of this reflective state of mind.
back to (harsh) reality.

1.25am now.
i'd head off soon.
finish up the cup of coffee
and sleep.

ciao.

latetimes.

@1:18 AM

Friday, January 01, 2010

well. its been a year.
one that brought alot of growth and faith,
and strength through challenges given to me by Him.
a year that opened my eyes to lotsa stuff as well.
the post would be too lengthy if i were to type of all i think. heh.
but it was a good year i must say.

what i hope for this new year, nothing specific.
just one very generic goal,
that is to be a better person overall.
its like how you know that u've been rather okay as a friend or family member,
but there are certain personal flaws of ur own that could have been done away with.

like if you wished for happiness or more peace in your life in the coming year,
perhaps it could actually start from ur thinking and character.
how you could be more tolerant of ur friends, family members if things dont work out.
knowing that by being more tolerant,
perhaps less arguments and politics would occur in ur life.
which ultimately leads to more peace within yourself.
this itself is quite a challenge eh.
but i just think that many things that you hope for,
actually start from urself.

there are certain things that u cant control of cos.
that is where the challenge comes,
and its down to trust in Him,
that there is actually a purpose for any incident that may occur.
like you ask for strength,
and He gives you a challenge in ur life to overcome.
that is where ur strength is tested.
believe that you'll gain strength, by overcoming the challenge presented.

i may sound boring with all these nonsensical stuff that come outta my head.
but the realisation of things in this perspective have brought me much contentment.
things in daily life, like seeing a crippled person living in peace,
reminds you of how blessed you already are.
and how we are actually so damn caught up with trivial worries and arguments.
makes me feel like quite a loser, worried bout stupid sch and other small stuff.
haha.

so, currently in a state of peace within myself,
and going into this new year with belief
that everything will work out fine eventually.
why not make it better by realising ur actual self,
and improve on it. benefits yourself and others around you.
and live out this journey of life to the fullest.
spend it with the loved ones in your lives, the cherished friends,
and just embrace life and its surprises.

here's to a happy and blessed new year yeah~
Goodnite.

latetimes.

@3:09 AM

Monday, December 21, 2009

its been awhile again.
life's been going along rather smoothly.
test period have gone by. projects are peaking now.
but my priorities are such that i'd rather catch up with the old mates,
then sit in front of the laptop typing out some report.

a couple of meetups with the sec sch friends this week.
upper sec, lower sec.
both were impactful in their own ways.
lookin back again,
its been quite a journey with all these people.
i know for certain i grew up alot during that whole time.
learnt alot, enjoyed most, but tough lessons for certain stuff.
think its safe to say,
its kinda clearly mapped out now, how things work out.
at least i know better how to approach certain things.
life lessons. thankful for them.

well anyway,
looking forward to meetin them again.
its quite nice to see, how we ourselves change (hopefully never for the worse)
from being naive 14-15 year olds,
to progressively having a better outlook of things as we get a lil older.
yeah again, the small little boy i was not too long ago.
a little comic relief just thinking about it.
well not that im big now or whatsoever. hah.

just kinda back into the reflective mood again.
seems like theres a timing for this mood,
when some down-tempo music play and im just sittin here late at night.
its peaceful, yet potentially bitter-sweet when the reflections come in again.
kinda like how things are at this time.
seems like the world could temporarily exude that wee bit of peace.

oh yeah, dinner with mum just now was nice.
not often that its just a mother-son quality time together.
real nice.
just felt like adding it to this post.

shall head off first.
ciao.

latetimes.

@1:40 AM

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

had an really amazing past week or so.
whole time was spent on coping with
numerous youth camp meetings, studying for tests and the actual youth camp itself.
really crazy.
plus, my ibanez is finally good again. happy bout this.
really thankful for everything that has happened.
seriously, it was a crazy time.
wasnt even sure if i could make it out of the whole time feeling good.
but, i can say i really did.
and i really thank Him for this.
was damn hectic and a major lack of sleep all those time didnt help at all.

looking back, it was a really awesome time.
not sure if i was ever that busy b4.
hope i've not seriously neglected anything.

last week of sch b4 the 2 week sch break starts.
for now, i've got a stats test to settle.
its in 7-odd hours, but i kinda diverted.
hah. no1 to blame anyway.
hols are gna be spent catching up on old friends.
the sec sch classmates and stuff.
plus, some catchin up academically.
last but not least,
having an awesome x'mas and new year.
basically, a good break from everything.

i'll give stats a lil last push,
b4 i KO and head to sleep again.

ciao.

latetimes.

@12:43 AM

Saturday, December 05, 2009

havent posted in a week or so i believe.
this period of time's rather hectic.
quite a fair bit of school tests and church activities.
juggling both is rather a challenge.
strength from Him is what i need.
coupled with a good dose of music,
and proper time management.

lots of stuff comin up over the next week or so.
tests, project meetups, some music audition, church camp.
hope all will go well, esp church camp.

strong faith and trust, i believe, is the foundation in the whole outlook in life.
esp applicable for me as a Catholic at least.
having the trust in God and knowing that all things happen for a reason.
good or bad, God willed it to be, for us to grow stronger, especially on the inside.
and the faith to carry on trying to live life to the best of your abilities.
though undoubtedly you'll falter and fall of the right side of things.
then comes these 2 attributes again,
knowing you'll stand up strong, and things WILL be fine,
as long as you do not allow yourself to wallow in ur misery.

its a cycle, the way i see it.
we have our fair shares of enjoyment, taking many little blessings for granted.
then something happens, and we fall.
and so on.
but ultimately, faith and trust allows us to get back up standing and smiling.
though it can conjure up some cruel realities,
we know that our lives are good.
with the faith and trust rooted deep within ourselves,
we can smile and embrace life and all that it can offer,
knowing God is always there backing us up.

well i dont know what made me say stuff like these again.
a random thing that just came up. heh.

back to studying.
ciao.

latetimes.

@1:42 AM

Saturday, November 28, 2009

slack day today, just stayin at home doin nothing.
feels good.
woke up real late, around 2 plus.
its been a long while since i had sucha long sleep.
used com, lazed around.
few churchmates came over.
had dinner, practiced some songs (plus a lil jamming)

church session trw.
havent had session in awhile too.
good to have it again.

next 3 weeks will be quite a big one.
with tests, church camp and other activities happening.
hope i can achieve a good balance between them,
and do well for both.

nice chill-out day today.
good rest from everything.

ciao.

latetimes.

@12:22 AM

Sunday, November 22, 2009

real long day today.
but i must say, an awesome one.
a lil too tired to fully elaborate.
but one thing i must say,

i greatly enjoyed performing with the guys just now.
had a great time playing. haha.
really great guys just having fun and perform, no pressure.
it really is quite a joy to experience.
really lookin forward to next playing date with those guys.

trw's another church meetin day.
hope it'll run out smoothly.
aft trw, its back to reality of sch.
sch's quite an interesting experience,
how i got to know many diff kinda ppl.
learnt quite abit in this period of my life.
good stuff.

its a relatively great day today.
will end off the day with some good ol' sleep.
ciao.

latetimes.

@1:32 AM