midnight.fever

Saturday, April 14, 2007

i was feelin lyk a failure after the race. tho i knew i wud be last.
my timing wasnt as bad as i first thought. it was the guys who was fast.
but i was feelin dejected, disappointed. feelin lyk i let falcon, frens, and myself down.
ppl said good luck, but i got last for them.
thanks venice for encouragin me.
u helped alot.

im gna train harder now. tho my leg isnt very accomadating.
train for next year. the competitions will be waiting for me.
2.46 for 800. tat's lyk 1.23 per round. i'll get 2.30 and below if i get to run next time.
tat's not my event at all. but i'll try hard. for eveything.

ystd's still buggin me.
sry peeps.
i've let u all down.
tho it wasnt an event i can run well at, i have no excuses to be so far behind every1 else.
1 more year to train.
1 year of hard training.
its on.

my studies havent been good too.
gta brush up on them.

latetimes.

@11:45 am

Thursday, April 12, 2007

i freaking cant cope with everything sia.
fuckin irritated.
failed napfa test. bloody hell.
1st station failed..the other 4, no matter how well i did its no use.
really down man.

lotsa stuff in my head again.
no time to sort them out now.
rite now every1's been studyin.
ppl tellin me to buck up.
how man.

im a lazy freaking piece of shit lah.
im even wastin my time on bloggin.
help me sum1.
jus a person hu's free to study with me or sth.
that'll help alot man.
im really lost.

havin probs with teachers.
i realised its always my own prob.
but usin teachers to cover up.
its all me man.
my own prob.
and i do not noe how to solve everything.

im lost, im down and i dno where im headin too.
i cant even see what am i good at throughout my 14 years in life.
im good at absoluely nothing.
help me God.
im lost.

latetimes.

@11:03 pm

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

this post is a dedication.
for good fren mark ong. haha.

well today's his bday and i din get him a present. wad a fren i am.
i'll get him one..tho it may be too late.

so this is my temporary bday pres for him(?)

yeah..
happy birthday man. all the best in everything u do. =)
u gta wait for ur present yeah. hah.

haha. hope he haves an enjoyable bday.
even tho he has the speech day rehearsal i think.
ohwell.

exams drawin closer. my mind doesnt seem to care much. and im gna change my thinkin.
rgh. maths test screwed up, lyk always.
eng test trw..gna dig up my notes~
im gna aim high for this test.
dun wna let myself down..hah.

nationals in a week from now..
the pressure is certainly felt..

latetimes.

@6:35 pm

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

why cant parents understand.
i noe its my fault lah.
but pls leh i feel fuckin bad enuf bout it lah.
everythin oso shout at me now.
am i tat stupid?
maybe i am.

but shoutin doesnt help. pls.
feel bad enuf and u still rub it in.
maybe ur tryin to help. but no, its the wrong way.
its over. dun well on it pls.

send wad report. it wun help lor.
confirm. in the end send report i still kena reprimanding from those staff.
only gets me more scoldin. bloody hell.

sch pants lost u make sucha big fuss outta it. i noe my fault lah. shit.
im gna buy using my own money..since u dun wna pass me some to buy another.
and if i lose it i dun think i shud report to u.
i lose my things i handle myself.
parents will only make matters worse.
they never bother to make me feel better.
they do nth besides scoldin and naggin for anythin bad.
fook.

latetimes.

@7:45 pm

Monday, April 09, 2007

seems lyk every1's feelin the stress of sec 3 life. the bloody super big pile of stress.
wonder how some ppl can cope so well.
hmm.

well to every1 hu's feelin blue cos of sch lyk me, cheer up yeah?
not easy but look forward to the hols. seems quite soon to me. dno why.
cos the exams take up lyk 10 days? 1/3 mth. then post-exam activities and results..bout another 1 wk? yeah. plus this revision we hav to do..i think this mth will pass fast. so yeah.
hang on ppl~ =)

we'll be fine.
haha =)

hope i'll be fine too. hah.

running and more running is comin up~!
more pressureeee. rgh.

alrite, gtg.

ciao~

latetimes.

@9:40 pm

Sunday, April 08, 2007

i hate studying man. seriously.
the pressure of chem test is building up in me. and with my class
so competitive, it just makes everything harder.
dun get it wrong, i love my class. and i think that im really lucky to be in tat class.

but jus that, every1 has sucha high expectation of themself. its hard man.
and for a person lyk me hu doesnt really study much, maybe its a good time for me to start studying. but all these come fast and hard. in a test i think i can be the only failure lah.

argh.
help me peeps.

tis wkend went well i guess.
2 trips to church.
walkarounds.
all with family. yeah. din have much time to study. hah. my loss.
oh well.

alrite, i think my break's over.

ciao~

latetimes.

@10:26 pm