midnight.fever

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

okay..work's piling up.
drama. maths. chem. bio. need serious revision for these.
i can foresee myself not doin well in the exams if i dun study.

well on a better note..
i finally got sth proud with for my CA1. An A for my only humans sub. =)
hope i can maintain it. along with an aim for A in eng. yeah.
well i gta really thank my great frens for sticking by me. big thanks to every1 of u =)

i guess theres jus sth bout me.
maybe its my attitude? i dno. but i certainly noe theres character in me that needs to be improved. well..i'll be better when the new term starts. i really hope to be better in studies and sports and a person in general. =)

i love my friends. every1. =)
thanks lots peeps.

and God..thank u for giving me such wonderful people to be with.
and always havin a solution for me in times of need. =)

till then,

ciao =)

latetimes.

@9:20 pm

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

did i bring this upon myself..?
all these hw..all these shit.

seriously angry cos of sch..i really really wna give up.
i wna keep away from sch.
i hate studies.
i hate MATHS.
hu's gna make me lyk maths, i wonder.
the more teachers teach it, the more i hate it. not dislike. its hate.
fuck lah.

dun do hw, call parents.
if i dun do hw but exams i score well, how?
im very sure i can score well. but rite now im jus very cocked-up inside.
im not doing any hw. and i have no way to destress. badminton?
hav to book..check if theres availability..smack awhile. the end.
run? mus walk a long dist to the stadium. and the risks of my legs hurtin more.
soccer? no soccer ball now. cant even whack any of them with the neighbourhood im livin in.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh. tis is seriously shit.
wna call my parents then call lah.
next time i score well for exam to let u see. see how u react when i do
wad? throw my test paper on the table while u call out to every1's name when u give them out.
wads this..ppl poor at maths u throw their test paper on the table to show ur detest for them?
wna sack me as a moniter? i'll gladly accept.
why dun u jus leave me alone. i rather have tuition than hav u.

jus tell it straight to my face u dun want me in ur class or what.
i dun need ppl to beat around the bush.

i seriously hate sch. i noe its my loss when i actually dun learn anything in sch.
but how? teachers are?
commited to teach?
is that what u are?
most teachers aren't like that.
a simple pat on ur back and u scold me. when i was jus merely playin.

now wad does that say.
if i get caught for writing all these.
wad will happen?
i get suspended?
u give me a punch?

i noe im rude by sayin all these.
but what else do u want me to do?
skip sch?
unless u hav a better suggestion tis is the only way i vent anger.

i dun wna give a sulky face all day in sch cos my frens simply do not deserve sulky faces.

any1 hav suggestions to help me?

latetimes.

@8:20 pm

Monday, March 05, 2007

well..another redundant day of sch today..chi teacher din come..yeah. after sch..GL meetin..to be honest i was half-hearted goin into the camp as a GL..cos i wasnt really confident in makin an impact or whatsoever. then i decided if they are still overloaded then i shall jus drop out. then ys went to ask mdm foong sth and i found out tat im already in. so okay..shall try hard. tho im not very confident. 1st and last chance..well go for it.

then track..yck stadium..4k time trial..a lil confused bout my timing..well i noe im not very good. so yeah..gta improve for april if i do get the chance to represent. if not..jus aim for sch x-country. after 4k, did 4 times of 200m..head was feeling heavy and i felt weak. guess tis is wad u get for not training consistently. my knee hurts now. din noe so many ppl knew bout my knee and stuff..thx to every1 hu showed concern bout it. =) without frens im seriously nothin man. tho i'm not a very good fren overall, but yeah..i really do treasure u peeps =)

tis comin hols..not enuf for me to recharge for the coming term..i seriously hope i wun collapse academically midway. cos i cant afford to.
God give me the strength to carry on in what you have planned for me to excel in.

well yeah..many many downs tis past week or two..not sure if i have really picked myself up.
but i cant let any1 down. but somehow i jus find myself to be distant from ppl nowadays. somehow. and yeah..i can argue..well ppl think i can be rude when i do so..i dno, but i only argue for what i really think is right..tho most of the times i dun care much and jus play along.

yeah..jus had the urge to blog so yeah..jus did so. well i wna improve on my eng, get an A or sth. really want to. maths..rather hopeless for me with his teaching. chi is never good. im really thinking of goin to B chi. well better than seeing an underline for chinese in O's..yeah.

latetimes.

@9:49 pm

Sunday, March 04, 2007

im lookin forward to the end of this wk..b4 it even really started.

1. its the short but much-needed 1-wk hols.
2. i'm gna get my guitar tis friday. =)

yeah..nth much left to say.

ciao.

i only live for God, no1 or nothin else.
amen.

latetimes.

@6:49 pm