midnight.fever

Saturday, June 05, 2010

helped out with a session by another ministry today, Children of Light.
as the name suggests,
they deal with children, and just helping the kids to realise the love of God and just learning more bout Him.
going through a lil games activity today, brought much joy.
seeing all their innocent answers and questions, its really funny yet joyful.
their enthusiasm in knowing more and participating, yet maturity in their knowledge.
just real enlightening seeing them.

makes me think, how much enthusiasm we lack in our everyday lives.
how we go about each day, thinking "what do i have to do today"
and we go about, fulfilling our obligations and sch/work.
most of the time, we'd feel weary inside, even though we would manage to complete our tasks.
but, are we truly happy with what we are?

quiet time with Him in the adoration room helps me piece my thoughts together,
and, through the few minutes in the room, seek comfort in Him.
we all feel so tired very often, and are broken inside in one way or another.

little things like seeing how the children work and talk,
gives me a reminder of His love for us.
how we can be blind to Him in our everyday lives.
we lack our own personal time, be it to reflect or to pray.
we always spend time gettin work done.
by the time we're done with them, we'd neglect prayer probably by just KO'ing on the bed, or just start watching TV or surfing away on the com.
how much we complain bout little things in our lives,
but always overlook all the blessings that we already have.

we always overlook all the good things that exist in our lives,
and keep going on about how we dislike this or that.

we may dislike certain people for their flaws.
but do we take time to truly listen them out, instead of judging them based on their flaws
i know i defintely fault in this,
just as many people do.
we face many people with bullshit,
but how we filled with those bullshit to pass judgment on them as well.
in a way, i feel, is pride.
how we feel we are always right, and are above certain people.
such an easy trap to fall into.

i'll stop here. not much relevance in what i said,
but at least it comes straight from what i feel.
ciao.

latetimes.

@1:01 am

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

had an awesome weekend spent at CC3 camp.
one major thing i learnt, was how blind i could be to Him,
only searching for Him through the physical things around me,
instead of looking for him on the inside.
i get abit messed up thinkin bout it still. but its a valuable reminder by Him.

After this good spiritual weekend spent, its back to the pile of things that i've to settle.
i feel a lil uncertain bout everything, looking at whats lying in front of me to do.
its really quite a challenge trying to balance being involved in church and sch.
havent done tutorials since i dont know when.
only studying for tests a day or two before.
assignments waiting.
church band practices and sessions to think about.
i thank Him for the reminder of how He's always around even when we overlook His presence.
and for that, i know that i can count on my faith in Him.

Its good to have caught up a lil with sec sch mates.
really, they are quite a treasure to me. haha.
not forgetting the friends in church and sch,
all special in their own little ways.
its quite uplifting being with them.

gta head off to settle project first.
hope i'll be able to sustain well for the next week or two.
ciao.

latetimes.

@12:02 am