midnight.fever

Saturday, June 07, 2008

well past 2 days got better.
jammed a lil with scouts ystd. was great. haha.
not very used to elec. haha.
went church today.

so we had to get the keys to the room we had to use.
so after getting the keys and while walking towards the room,
mark sorta pointed out the a portion of the church ground was actually "swollen"
lyk that part of the ground had something like a hump.
so he jus lyk casually stomped on it with no bad intent.
then this man after seeing what mark did, asked him to go the him.
the way he asked lyk he wanted a fight.
for no reason i guess. mark jus stepped on the ground harder to point out something, thats all.
and the man like wanted to fight.
so the man asked some weird questions.
like "are u a roman catholic?"
blabla. then he tried to lecture mark or something.
in the end the man kinda got shut-up by mark.
jus lyk what mark said, he "owned" the man. tsk.
something lyk that lah. hah.
all the way i was jus smiling, seeing how mark talked his way around and jus shut the man up. haha.
after that, we walked away. kinda pissed with the guy for his nonsense. hah.
think of our grp mates pointed the finger at the man. hahaha. funny.

then later coincidentally what we talked bout during session was actually on judging people.
so yeah. turned out to be kinda creepy.
and we were talking bout whether it was maybe like a test to see how we judged people from God. haha. sounds odd. maybe its pure coincidence, or maybe something more. hah.

alrite, nothing much.
jus wanted to post and say everything's better for myself.

and thanks titus for the msg ystd night. haha.
its appreciated. haha.

today's session used a phrase from the bible which i found kinda meaningful. hah.
shall type it here. its bout judging others (lyk what i said) :

"why do you look at the speck in your brother's eye,
but pay no attention to the log in your own eye?"

jus a short part. might seem kinda confusing at first.
but the meaning's real nice.
its about how we judge people's differences and say bad things about them,
when in the first place we have a log, which signifies our own faults, in ourselves.
so what its trying to say is that,
judge yourselves and see the faults in yourself first rather
than jus pass off comments about the faults of others.

we're all guilty of this i guess. hah.
this is jus to remind myself not to talk bad bout people. hah.
might help any1 of u too. i hope.

latetimes.

@5:52 pm

Thursday, June 05, 2008

im kinda stuck at home with nothing much to do.
guitar-ed jus now. now nothin much left. hah.
guess my boredom can be sensed by the everyday blogging past few days.
i wna go out and learn some new stuff on guitar.
or music at least.
i feel in better off doing music..rather than all the maths and stuff.
i dno. maybe theres a reason in me having nothing to do.
making me stay home and have no choice but to do work.
maybe so. its not a nice feel actually. hah.

i know that i'll be real free to do whatever i want after O's.
but apart from guit, it'll be nothing else rite.
i mean, im not the kind who wud be called out for some outing often.
perhaps its my own personality. really gets to me sometimes.
hah. but its alrite. close frens are good enuf, compared to having many frens to have fun with.
but it doesnt seem this way for them. or at least i think.
argh. another episode of my over-sensitive thinking.
i was told in lower sec that i was over-sensitive.
guess it stayed with me mentally. tho it gone away physically.

what am i here for? i still don't know.
am i meant to be something or someone different from the rest?
not cut out to be doing typical jobs people have.
argh. in Singapore, theres no way one can go far without results.
guess i cant do far without them too.
yeah, seems lyk theres only 1 way out.
seems dumb if i say im a lil sick of life. even at a young age of 15+.
im like living a life where i don't know where im heading to or what im living for.
thought i live perhaps to maybe cheer people up.
but u cant always make people happy.
or maybe after u do, most forget you. always the case.
of all the frens i have. i quietly see who can be the true ones.
many can, but our characters differ too much i guess.
so it all comes down to me again. sigh.

stupid unneccessary thinkings make one moody without a reason.
if only i have a simpler mind.
i still don't know what im good at.
guess you cant be good in anything without hard work huh.

maybe i shud stop thinking bout these dumb stuff for now.
jus makes me feel worse.
its funny. how im totally fine. but i inflict myself with moodiness.
jus like self-mutilation of the mental strength.

i think i'd remove my tagboard.
don't think many wud bother anyway. tsk.

argh. ciao~

latetimes.

@4:30 pm

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

im feeling kinda weird recently.
lyk im not myself. tsk.

possibly due to the numerous days of not communicating much with people.
not wanting to sound lyk some despo here
but ystd night there was some huge irritating sense of loneliness.
lyk im stuck in some dreadful place without an aim or any1 to share sentiments with.
guess this is a time where faith really comes in huh.
to guide me and stuff.
argh. i think im weird.

i feel that i lost my sense of humour over the years
remembered that i was lyk some freaking monkey in lower sec.
now, i behave lyk i practice a policy of isolation.
not that i want to. guess its me nowadays.
haha. im not an easy person to understand huh.
tsk.

heck. ciao~

latetimes.

@6:14 pm

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

today i woke up 3pm plus. hahaha.
nice rite. well i slept almost 2 ystd.
and yeah, im a big sleeper.
and sleeping rocks. hahaha.

nothing much to blog today.
jus felt lyk doin so. hah.
anyway rach ur relinked. haha.
not cute. haha.

and titus, hope ur feeling better with ur sunburn yeah.
think we have to postpone our next swim. tsk.
recover from the aftereffects first. hahaha.

i feel that i sound kinda rude when i talk to ppl.
where did this habit come from.
sry if i ever talk rudely and any1's offended.
tho i hope nobody is. tsk.
or maybe, its over-sensitivity again.
dumb man.

ciao~

latetimes.

@9:57 pm