Its been a month. Life has been going on pretty fine..with a couple of small tests from Him along the way. well...kinda feel that i'm in a state right now, where i dont know what His plans for me are. A time where i dont know that whatever i'm doing, is right or wrong. but hey...its thru these stuff that we seek His will for us even more eh! Is this whole thing coming on too soon? I think so. guess this is where my responsibility has to come in, to restrict myself from caving into emotions once again. To not let emotions completely take over the head, and to continue to uphold my responsibility as a leader of the ministry. of course, such feelings are always nice to experience.. the feeling of being a little closer than friends do. but at the end of the day, are these experiences a fleeting moment? or are they ones that can possibly lead to something long-term. Above all, I have to keep all ears open in me to listen out to His voice at this time. To not be clouded by the happenings all around me. I do need to hear what He has to say to me. What He has in will for me, for us, for the times ahead. Its getting harder to listen, with so much going on, but i'm gonna hang on, to try to keep the silence in my heart for Him. A little getaway would be awesome now. To a scene from New Zealand... lush greenery, animals grazing on the green pastures. lying down on the grass, looking up to the clear sky. damn, its good. haha. Life's taking an interesting turn. Lets see where and how i end up this time. Good vibes all around, but are they for real? Only time will tell, as long as i continue to hang on to Him, and keep my heart open. to Him. Ciao.
Would you want me, when i'm not myself?
