midnight.fever

Monday, March 08, 2010

in times of adversity, despair and hurt,
we tend to wna shelter ourselves from the suffering
by solely relying on our own abilities.
either by bottling up
and try to turn urself away from people and other distractions
or resort to manners to let a lil of the agony felt inside out,
thru the change in behaviour.

all this change just to hide and cover up one's innermost feelings
keeping them away from the people and world around us.
ultimately, one would just wallow in self-pity and crumble on the inside.

what can cause such immense feelings.
largely from the feelings u may feel for a person?
or maybe being a victim/target of accusations and bitching by people?
or the loss of someone u used to hold so dearly.
many reasons i guess.

believe many people are just wearing a mask on the outside.
not being ur true self when u step face most people
a difference in ur true character and attitude,
just to cover up ur own insecurities.

im guessing, that the people that u probably feel dearly for.
are the ones that can u can actually open urself to
to remove the mask that u wear on the outside
and just talk and express what u really feel on the inside.

there are only very few people in our lives that are capable of doing so.
and once u find a person like that,
you'll find it hard to let go.
no matter how much the person may possibly hurt u,
u still care for them.

and this loss of such a person may just cause so much hurt in you.
so much so, that there are changes in your behavior, attitude.
stemming from just a sole human that was a significant part of ur life.

in the midst of all the suffering
where would God be in this situation?
would He be forgotten?
as you neglect Him, choosing to settle ur own problems alone.
think that's one major thing we are all very well capable of doing.
even myself, very often.

then comes along some1 else,
whom u realise u can pour all the suppressed anger and pain out.
a person who had the patience to be quiet and listen,
and bear the brunt of ur frustrations
a person who will play a big role in helpin u stand up strong again.

this person, i believe, is actually a little representation of His love for us.
if we hold out long enough, and not to drown ourselves out from the people around us,
along will come such a person.
it all comes down to faith and trust again, to me at least.

just think it's all a cycle of us falling and standin up again.
a process, that makes us go through suffering.
and only thru the suffering, that we can appreciate where all the good things come from.
and to cherish the people around us.

this is just a good example of how i feel that
holding on and trusting in God would tide you over
and actually keeps you sane from all the happenings of this world.
cos life is really one hell of a rollercoaster.

people bitch, and life can play very good tricks on you.
things that keep you away from the peace and happiness that one has.
so why let stuff like that get you down.
think bout it, if ur in the wrong then do something bout it.
but if u've been doin good,
then just live ur life.
and be happy for the many little blessings that we have.
blessings that we so often overlook.

so this was just a rant
may be wrong/right in other's judgment.
but its just something that i feel for/believe in

latetimes.

@2:56 am