midnight.fever

Saturday, March 03, 2007

i find myself being a different person from hu i was. i dno why..but i jus think so.
i cant really think positively anymore. gettin moody for no reason. showing a black face wherever i go. i try to be happy..but somehow its a lil hard for me now. i'm not doing much being a moniter of my class. my studies arent good. my running isnt consistent. everything's cocked up.

i jus dun care much of everything now. ppl's moodiness are caused by some unhappiness bout stuff and will be better after some encouragements..but i dun think mine's the same. i jus keep thinking and thinking....on and on. i dun see why im thinking sooo much bout everything..so much that im frustrated from being hu i am. im practically moody bout things that needs no bothering at all. sigh. this kinda thing to me can't really be solved and stuff. moodiness causes me to shun away from ppl. and im afraid this can cause minunderstandings in the long term.

whoever tat sees me being quiet and stuff..pls dun bother too much. cos i'll be better tat way.
and im sry if im ignoring u peeps..cos if i actually talk unwillingly it wun be nice. yeah.

why am i sounding and feeling so emo.

i really hope u guys wun think im seeking attention or whatsoever cos im jus venting frustrations here. well whatever it is..frustrations wun be in my blog from now on. it'll be somewhere else.

latetimes.

@2:17 pm

Thursday, March 01, 2007

well..past few days were alrite..nth much i guess.

today:

we finally get to move back to our original home..where sec 3e's belong..and away from the lower sec. the form teacher of the class who took our place on the first floor..acting big i guess. tis morn after assembly she came to our 2nd floor classroom to hurry us..so okay, we hurried..reached 1st floor to find out that they weren't even ready..bloody shit. then hurry us for wad. ppl kena scolding by her summore. wats her prob. then everything went on fine until recess time..she came up to the hall..specifically hanged around our sec 3 area..finding a target from our class to scold..so yeah..chose sum1 who din deserve any scolding. in fact no1 in my class deserved the scolding..dno she scold for wad shit. wna scold then scold me lah..scold other ppl for wad. bloody shit. wad did we do wrong anyway. well made us angry after tat. well every1 cooled down afterwards i guess. so yeah..the rest of the day went on smoothly.

after sch, i went to pang's hse..watched gridiron gang..nice =), played some guitar..and crapped too. haha yeah..stayed until 5.30..so went back to sch with him for bout 2 mins? yeah..cos wz and chongbing were goin home by the same way as me..so walked with them too while pang went the other way. so yeah..i brought shoe bag for nth too. haha.

trw...x country..how will i fare? will i get a top 20? i better get it man. the thought of last yr..lincoln gettin 21st scares me. i better not get 21st or wad man. dun get trophy i'll be heartbroken. rgh. supposed to go to pang's hse b4 the run..but i think so many ppl..i might jus chill with the other peeps. i dno why. but yeah..eslf-motivation time. hah. jus wna get tis run over and done with..either add a trophy to my meagre collection or feel the moodiness of lettin ppl and myself down. all the best to me and others. =)
hope sum1 makes me angry trw..i might jus hav an added boost of speed =)

okay..ciao!

latetimes.

@7:28 pm