midnight.fever

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

just saw this lil 9 year old boy playin some blues.
haha. awesome man. hope for the blues.
the blues kinda went a lil down after death of SRV.
but here comes the rise of many other great blues musicians.
Robben ford, joe bonamassa, derek trucks, john mayer.
not forgettin the legend-eric clapton.
and this lil 9 year old came up.
Amen to blues man.
love the soul and feeling that goes into this music.
awesome.

so, i had dinner with sec sch mates just now.
these were the guys who really hung out in sch, during recesses, erc.
the ones im really close to.
yeah. its been 4 years with most of them.
the whole sec sch life.
and damn, did we grow from being puny sec 1 kids.
not as if we're big now, but its so much better for us now.
dan's bloody tall now. damn. we used to be the same height in lower sec.
basically it was great just headin for dinner with them lah.
haha.

and yeah, tried this thing called fried mars bars today.
awesome. haha.
pang u waiting for me to say this rite.
and yeah, my first, but not the last time i'll take this. hah!
it was damn sweet, but damn good.
shiokk.
and i ate mega burger twice in a row for dinner.
sickk man. but its still nice after today.
hopefully no more swensons for awhile. haha.

quite a good day today.
trw will be some guitar-checkin out at city music.
wna have a look at some multi-effects.
and oso, martin guitars. haha.
jem's gna try out craftsman guit. hopefully it'll be great. haha.
gna have a lil run too. finally.
havent been running.

alrite.
ciao.

latetimes.

@10:56 pm

is it still a case of, holding on and still not lettin go?
or is it just..God's will?

holding on to a faint hope that it might still work.
its funny, how many ppl can come along and change ur perspective for awhile.
but down in the roots of the heart,
there might actually be a seed of feelings already planted.
one that is unwavered by any other waves of feelings ever felt.
or is there ever one.

i still felt it was something i had never thought of b4.
how you could feel such at ease with some1, yet having such feelings.
i see many ppl falling head over heels for their respective guy/girl.
and i often dismiss it as a case of infatuation and crushes.
well, i do that because of whatever i have experienced.

now it seems distant to me.
ironic, how something that i feel so strongly for, yet at ease with,
could now become something foreign.
the communication has lapsed into, being mere friends.
the fall from grace.

its amazing how this thing bout love plays its game, one that nobody can comprehend.
something that can be heart-wrenching, yet beautiful. the 2 extremes.
a 50-50 game, between feeling like ur in heaven, or being placed in the depths of agony.
yet, it is something that everybody yearns for, ultimately.

i still believe its the best thing God ever had,
and wills us to always give and embrace.
Love.

latetimes.

@2:51 am

Monday, September 07, 2009

thought i could go for ice skating with poly mates trw.
but in the end, mum didnt allow.
for a really stupid reason.
kinda frustrated. but argh heck it.
its alrite.

so theres actually soccer with peirce mates too at sin ming trw.
i told teng i couldnt make it initially, cos i thought i would be goin ice skating with poly mates.
but yeah..looks like i could join these guys for soccer then.
awesome stuff.
though theres still a fair bit of frustration why i wasnt allowed to head out with poly mates.

listened to shout the lord by hillsongs.
written by darlene zschech specifically.
really awesome song. touching and emotional for me.
me and jem played this in the parish segment for north district youth rally ystd.
was really letting go of control over my hands.
as in i wasnt concentrating on the actualy playing,
but rather just in honour and worship to the One above.
just felt so nice.
aft the whole P&W session,
heard from one of my churchmate that one of my friend kinda touched by the Spirit
that made me feel even happier bout the whole P&W thing.
just letting the people feeling God's love through the music.
really awesome and gratifying for me.
since personally, i really have a feel for playing music for God,
apart from my love for music.

i just want to acknowledge this fact that i am given this gift for music,
and its given by Him.
and i would give the blessings back to Him through this gift.
like the lyrics in the song,
"every blessing you pour out, i'll turn back to praise"
something like that.
yeah thats what i'll always try to do.
really a big thanks to my a great friend called jeremy norfor.
reminded me of coming back to the heart of worship.
playing the music, all for Him.
regardless of the people we're playing in front of.
that really got me.
thanks jem. though i know you wont be readin this. heh.

alrite, kinda said what i felt like saying.
just a sense of gratefulness for all the blessings that i am given.
yeah. real awesome.
Amen to that.

ciao.

latetimes.

@12:04 am