midnight.fever

Friday, June 05, 2009

sch today. stats lecture and AFA tutorial. was okay lah.
played soccer and swam a very lil bit.
great to have soccer aft a real long time. haha.

i have abit of frustrations.
i've to say its bout my dad.
honestly, i'd rate his character and behaviour as 2/10 or something.
no self responsibility and always showing attitude.
sigh. i dno man.
the ultimate wish i have, is never to be like him.
really, i dont wna end up like him.

in my 10 years living in a bishan block,
i see alot of his major flaws.

when i eventually am a family man,
i will clear all bills promply and not owe hundreds or thousands in utility and housing bills.
i wont be a bloody drunkard who comes back half-screwed.
i wont show major attitude to my family nor act like a fucked up king.

yeah at least thats what i really hope for.
i guess this sums up what i kinda felt like saying.
i will not want to be a father who lacks in some serious responsibility and moral values.

thank God for my mum, for keeping me grounded as a person.
and thank God for my father,
as he puts me thru many difficulties so that i'll learn life lessons that i can apply in life ahead.

back to a brighter note,
trw will be a sentosa outing with church ministry.
hope it'll be a real enjoyable one with the peeps.

i need some faith and spiritual healing. hah.
felt like im lacking in some areas recently.
becoming a lil angsty nowadays for no proper reasons.
sigh. im back to a depressing mood. tsk.

i better end off here.
b4 i get all emo shit. haha.

pain throws your heart to the ground. yes how true.
love turns the whole thing around. but wheres the love...?

latetimes.

@10:45 pm

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

had POM test ystd, must say it went rather well.
but dno if the results will be rather well oso lah. tsk.
though im quite happy with my oral comm test result. haha.
lucky.

anyway, today was a rather normal day.
had a lil group presentation for oral comm, ungraded though.
then econs tutorial. elasticity.
theres quite alot of things to remember/understand i feel. heh.
then aft sch, kinda slacked around for awhile. ate macs. again.
then went to play pool at grassroots club. since it was just beside sch.
kinda fun, only 1 hr though.
then headed back to sch with logan and dan to run,
while they had dragonboat trainin afterwards.
but we all still ran though. they're fit guys. haha.

trw, apparently, is AFA test.
and i thought it was on friday.
lets see whether its really held trw.
i'll keep it updated here. haha.
hope i can score for AFA too. heh.

recently my wallet has been burning rather badly.
lotsa $$ spent on food.
and i bought a guit mag ystd.
just made things worse. haha.
well, i kinda asked for it. since i bought it outta my own will.

okay, feelin more sleepy than usual today.
only 10.50pm. weird.
i think AFA revision and prac will KO me later.
haha. hope i'll sleep early too.
i've a rather bad sleepin time. yeah.

ciao.

latetimes.

@10:42 pm

Monday, June 01, 2009

its 12.51am.
kinda going thru the last few parts of POM for test trw.
i guess it should be okay.
doing well, i always have my doubts.
but i'd expect myself to at least pass decently since i kinda studied decently for it.
heh. you reap what u sow huh.
it doesnt always apply though, that particular quote.

i had a rather impossible thinking just now.
i prob thought of this b4, and prob said it here b4 too.
but i'd say it again, since i feel like it.

how nice if we could head off to somewhere, away from all the business of life.
just an acoustic guit, a grp of real close peeps to joke with, talk heart to heart with, and cool weather. i dont think its possible. heh.
man..that'll be great.
again, reality sets in.
test trw, classes again. bothering about what clothes to wear.
no, its not a very ideal life i would wna live.
not that i dont really like stress (a wee bit is good)
but the hustle and bustle of things sometimes just tire me out.
thankfully theres still a couple of hours of chill out time fortnightly.
but i kinda miss the chill out time with close friends.
specifically, a close friend.
its abit hard now, since most are busy with their lives.
can only meet many friends durin mass meetings like class outings.
which dont really happen very often.

and time sometimes shows its negative side.
how things can be awkward between 2 people initially.
this awkwardness can make people decide to postpone meet-ups and stuff, i feel.
and awkwardness affects me somehow too.
i dont really bother bout this, unless the person is who i consider a close friend.
argh. shouldnt talk too much bout this. heh.
but at least some closer peeps, we're doing very well.
its always the guys that are good altogether, luckily. haha.

well. trw's titus's concert.
so, meeting up with pang and jon. yeah.
great to chill with them. haha.

okay, i'll finish up my POM now.
ciao.

this song comes up to my mind, in relation to what i kinda felt.
its from Norah Jones. beautiful singer.

I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
Don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road alone

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Something has to make you run
Don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
Don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

latetimes.

@12:50 am