midnight.fever

Sunday, September 07, 2008

had youth mass over at church just now.
did readings for the mass. was a nice mass.
parents and sis came for it too. so it was kinda nice. haha.

things have been rather mundane recently.
not going out much, lyk some geek. haha.
im quite a boring person. more homely.
just fiddling with the guit at home most of the time, not doing work.
hah. usual me lah.
but its kinda pressurising, lyk it kinda bugs u when u dun study or something.
the guilt really sets in after a whole day without studying. haha.
its 42 days to O's now.
august passed lyk that. thats lyk the speed to O's. hah. plus a lil more days.
real real fast.
haha.

guess right now most are preparing.
but im gna chill awhile after prelims.
maybe soccer and movies. that'll be nice. haha.

sometimes i feel kinda weird.
ppl are always goin out, watching movies and eating out.
while im always with family or at home.
thats where i see the diff between my personality and most friends.
kinda bugs me at times.
whether it was me being a tad too reserved?
but i guess its just my own personality. haha.
so yeah. no probs.
nevertheless, i enjoy chilling out with close friends.
find that i'll only talk more with the closer ones.
if not it'll still be the same old quiet weird me. haha.
heck, thats my character. haha.
dno why im sayin this but i just felt lyk. heh.

somehow i find myself struggling to talk well.
lyk i stutter sometimes over simple words, which have never happened.
maybe its a case of overthinking.
but maybe i have some weird speech prob. tsk.
can't make myself clear to ppl sometimes. pronouncing can even be a prob at times. haha.

kinda in the mood where im kinda reflective of stuff now.
must say im quite content with life.
small obstacles lyk moodiness do set in at times. but hey, thats life huh.
cant always be happy. its dumb if one never felt sad. haha.
great family, friends (im really grateful to meet a handful).
Don't wanna sound too religous here.
but really, thank you God for everything i have.
haha. just my thoughts.

its really hard to find good friends, just like what i was saying to one of them ystd. haha.
good friends that u can really share heart to heart to. yeah.
real few. can count with fingers. haha.
but that number's really enuf.
can have many many friends u chill and have fun with.
but how many u wud go to when ur down.
and how many that will really sit down and listen to u ramble on.
haha. few, like i said.
well glad that i know of people who will listen.
haha. thats enough for me, socially.

chilling out are extra stuff to bond. haha.
i oso find that its kinda hard to know me well. lyk really well. haha.
cos i dun talk much unless necessary.
maybe i'd add in a couple of jokes or something. hah.
thats all i guess.
talk alot and fun, its there in me. but doesnt really show.
dno why leh. haha.

the measely few who actually read this might be bored off this post.
but heck again, its my blog. haha.
no posting of bad stuff bout anyone. so no harms. haha.
just my thoughts alone. haha.

ciao~

latetimes.

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