midnight.fever

Saturday, August 18, 2007

tis is my 199th post.
quite alot huh.
but full of words. haha.
dun really bother, its lyk my personal blog without any restrictions.
so ppl can noe a lil bit more bout my mundane life.

okay, its 12.28am now.
dun really wna slp yet. i've nap'ed till around 7.45 jus now.
so yeah. can still stay awake.

im supposed to meet titus trw at novena to study bio.
but as always, my parents arent really willing to let me go.
so i cant go in the end.
only can go for this drama play.
well, i cant be angry at my parent's not allowin me to go.
okay actually my mum asked me to ask my dad the moment i asked her if i cud go.
so i took it as if i wasnt allowed to go.
cos if im allowed to go, my mum wud hav jus allowed.

back to wad i wanted to say,
i couldnt get angry over my mum's not allowin me to go.
cos i think i've not lived up to her expectations of me.
and of cos, her lack of trust in me is becos of tat.
so in the end, it all comes back to me and its only my fault tat im not being trusted.
hah. sry if its long-winded. tats me.

im feeling unusually lonely now. weird.
i hardly feel so. hah.
i've to say im feeling as if im talkin less to frens.
jus not caring as much now. lyk im in my own world.
weird. maybe its the psychological change in me.
but it isnt good. not caring as much for my close frens isnt a good thing.
wads the significance of close frens when i dun bother so much now.
im only living my own life- tats how i feel somehow.
i hope my feeling's wrong.
dun get me wrong, i care bout my frens and every1 around me.
its jus tat, i dun bother as much now.
i wonder wad others think.
am i more ignorant now?
perhaps so.

conclusion-im weird.
i think i shud sleep now and get over this lonely night.
listening to acoustic songs really help.
lyk jason wade and jason mraz.
beautiful songs, beautiful lyrics.
okay i shud stop tis crap.

trw's gna be a better day i guess.
drama play agememnon trw.
woo?

Goodnite and God bless~

i've been thinking..

latetimes.

@12:27 am

Sunday, August 12, 2007

4 day break is over.
how fast.

well it sucks to see the sch every monday to be honest.
sch life, argh its sad. hah.
i dun wna go thru all this chemical reactions, those maths.
i guess we hav no choice. every1 has to go thru it.
well, guess i'll jus hav to make the best outta sch life.
hav fun in sch thru frens.
actin stupid, makin ppl laugh. these lil things make sch life better.
well, today's melvin bday.
and sum1 kept tellin me his bday isnt today.
haha. kuku.

a pity melvin couldnt go out today.
had to help his parents.
well we're gna celebrate for him trw i guess.
bought a cake. no drinks tho. hahaha.
trw after sch in my class if any1 happen to read this.

alrite, sch starts trw.
another 5 days to wkends.
tests galore tis wk.

cya~!

latetimes.

@8:46 pm