midnight.fever

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

just felt like having a lil time of reflection again.
christian songs never fail to make me reflect.

well its been a rather emotionally-charged month.
wont go into details.

death can bring you back to the big picture of our personal lives.
how we can get so caught up with all thats happening around us.
death just seems to grab you by the neck and pulls you back.
and it can really hurt,
to know that you've lost someone in your life.
someone who you could have known so much better,
someone who you could have treasured so much more.
but its also a pretty beautiful thing, death.
how it can bring out the deepest emotions in everybody,
where a common love for the deceased brings everyone together,
and you can feel the love, really.
its bittersweet,
losing somebody you've seen through your whole life,
but at the same time taking comfort in the fact
that the deceased has indeed lived a good life filled with love.

the occurance of death has really got thinking,
since i've never lost any1 i personally knew, close or not.
and 2 of such passings really dealt a blow to me, straight through the heart.

sad we may be over losing a person in our lives,
but, thinking back now, we can smile, knowing how much love the person has brought to us.

well i've been meaning to talk bout sch life as well (at expense of study time)
its honestly been a place where...we cant be ourselves.
you see people who are just broken inside, but either
dont know what to do about it/dont even realise it.
seeing them, i'd think to myself and realise.
its the many little things you realise, and keep to yourself.

theres this guy in my class whos really been quite an inspiration for me.
its actually these kinda people who are really hidden gems on the inside.
they do not strike you in any way when you do not know them.
but knowing and talkin to him,
serves as another reminder of how we take so many simple blessings for granted.
and honestly, its really a joy to have known him.

its these people that humble you.
people who have suffered so much, and yet do not complain.
and there we are,
complaining about so many damn things.

why are we who we are now.
such assholes in our own little way.

we may not like how things are nowadays, all the bullshit happening everywhere.
but we are subconsciously lettin ourselves get pulled down by it as well.
i know i let myself fault ever so often. i do.

i'd stop here.
ciao.

latetimes.

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