midnight.fever

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Well its been a long time since i last posted.

what can i say, sch's been kinda hectic.

Just finished my last proj today with a skit.

exams start in late Aug, through to 9 sept.

i dont know, havent been working hard thus far.

didnt copy tut answers in class, so lets see how im gna study for this exam.

Church activities on the low side as well.

Canteen this weekend.

Having the cc3s attached to ministry now, so responsibility is definitely there.

Guess i can say im still feeling and doing fine,

despite not doing well in terms of studies.

Not in a state where im letting myself succumb to pressure.

How im still feeling fine despite not feeling comfortable and at ease,

shows how my spirituality guides me thru all that i do.

I've not been as spiritually filled as i hope to be.

its shitty, how your time with Him dwindles as soon as your tasks on hand increases.

but its a cycle i guess, how we rise and fall in this spiritual cycle.

all in all, i do know and try to acknowledge His love and presence in my daily life.

i fault, definitely. but a sense of guilt comes along with everything fault i find myself in.

in a way, i feel that is God's voice,

giving me a reminder of who i am NOT supposed to be.

and i'm thankful for that.

should the conscience and the inner voice of Him fade within me (as it can so easily be lost),

i might just have already faltered, feeling like how i felt a couple of times in the past,

havin all the negativity and just feeling useless.

the fact that i havent had that in awhile (not that i'd wish to feel that way),

shows how His love continues and will always shine down on me,

just like how He would to every single one of you.

just be thankful, and be open to all the little blessings that take place in your life everyday.

hmm, music...

nothing much has been happening in this aspect.

it continues to be my outet, and im forever grateful for this.

the drive to be a better player still burns strongly in me.

the power of music is too great and just cant be expressed in words.

just hoping more people in church would step up and offer their gift of music, back to Him.

i believe there will be people, just a matter of when He wills it.

well overall,

its been a busy period.

i'm doing fine, not by my strength though.

staying positive cause of all the positivity and beauty around me.

trying to be a good example of His love in my daily living

still loving, living and giving the music in me, and offering it back to Him.

ICT test later on.

study time.

ciao.

latetimes.

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