midnight.fever

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

had ngee ann poly's red camp today. first day.
could say it was quite a blast, with all the cheering and great people.
yeah. rather nice i must say.
tho it felt kinda draining towards the end of the day.
real fun yet informative. haha. great stuff.

trw's like their cca tryouts stuff. yeah.
expecting more fun stuff yet more tiring stuff. heh.
glad to have the company of the dear friends. haha.
even met a track senior. great guy. its kinda nice to meet certain people u havent met in a while.
that said, looking forward to the track camp too. 29th dec. haha.

sometimes certain weird thoughts fill my mind.
wouldn't it be nicer to just live by some countryside..?
just sitting and living carefree-ly. composing some songs, playing the guitar..
and just not caring bout the complexities of life.
no violence, no discrimination, no jealousy, no negative influences.
just love and peace all around.
yeah..it would be nice.
but i think thats kinda impossible huh. even in where im living in.
this kinda trait of agitatedness and maybe extra-sensitivity that makes me who i am.

do you ever feel like no one actually and, really, understands you?
yeah. maybe i said this before. but i really think its true.
even the closest one would have certain diff opinions as you at times i believe.
and some things people do that u might not approve of, but just wouldnt say.
cos this world kinda prohibits it.
if certain honest opinions are stated out, insecurity and anger might result i believe.
whether consciously or subconsciously, we are all putting on a mask in society.
its almost impossible to be who u really are.
i believe every single one is born good.
no1 can be bad if there is not a single negative influence in their life
so no matter how tough a person is to be understood.
deep down they still long to be understood,
even though their outer appearance would not show it.
who wouldnt want care and love? everyone does. i do.
its just a matter of the right person, whether the person believes in what u believe in too.
and when that person comes, u know it.
sometimes though, we fall too blindly in the arms of infatuation.
thats how short-term relationships come i think.
when u realise that partner of yours actually does not share the same feelings as u do.
this excluding the external factors lah.
one may think that he/she knows a person's likings inside out.
but do u really understand a person's heart? now i think thats a totally diff thing.
so when u come across someone who's heart is compatible to yours..
hold on to that person. tight.
be it the person becomes ur girl/boyfriend. or it can just be a real close true friend.
either one is good.
of course the former is nicer i think, though it does come with its risks.

okay, i think i spoke a lil way too much, as usual.
haha. wonder why i can keep rambling on bout such stuff. haha.
always feels like psychology is my path. but again, society forbid me to enter that course.
or is it me. tsk.

argh whatever it is. i'll do my best and see how life works out for me. heh.

ciao~

latetimes.

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